This sentence is so much easier to say than it is to believe. I think this statement rings even more true for people who may not have been athletic in their child/teen or college years. I have been running and working out for a number of years but it was not until a few years ago that I started to recognized that I am an athlete, it was even longer before I could get myself to say it out loud. I could say it about…Continue Reading “I am an ATHLETE”

I have recently re-evaluated my goals for myself. I still want to do more races and even do another half marathon, however I want to start small. It has been a long time since I have run a mile non-stop with no walk breaks. This used to be something I was able to do (not easily but I could do it). I spoke (via text) with my coach and he agrees with my new goals. I want to run a mile with no walk breaks…Continue Reading “Running a Mile”

I know I have mentioned here before how hard running has been for me in the past few months. It has been hard and honestly anytime I have run, I have been miserable. It has not been fun at all. I would finish a run and all I could think about is how awful it was, and how slow I was. I have really been beating myself down for not being as strong or as fast as I was several years ago. I have not…Continue Reading “Re-Discovering the Joy of Running”

I have missed Crossfit and the way I feel after a Crossfit class. I did all sorts of research looking for a Crossfit gym that fit within my monthly budget, appeared to be all levels and welcoming to new members/ people. I chose a gym, registered and paid for a class. I was so excited to lift things again. I arrived to class about 15 minutes early. I was already terrified because I hate trying new gym classes, it is intimidating. Today I was placed…Continue Reading “Gym Bullies are Real”

I would be lying if I said the last three weeks have been easy. I am new in a city where I don’t really have any friends yet. The lack of social life has been hard. I expected this to be hard. I did not expect to make friends overnight, this will come in time. The thing I did not expect to be hard was to figure out a workout routine. I expected to be able to just jump right in and find that perfect…Continue Reading “Finding My Confidence”

So here I am, Two Weeks into living in New York City. It has been amazing! Like really amazing. I have done a bunch of exploring. I have found and started a full-time job that will probably be one of the hardest and most challenging jobs I have ever had. I will succeed in the position and I will be able to speak Spanish fluently soon(ish). It has not been 100% easy, I have had a few moments where I wish I had been home…Continue Reading “Two Weeks In”

We all have dreams in life. We have big ones, we have little ones and we have some that seem impossible. Today I have started a new adventure in making my big an impossible dream come true. I got on a plane this morning in Jacksonville, Fl and I landed in NYC. I do not have a ticket to go back. My stuff is here and I am ready to tackle the Big Apple. I have always wanted to live here. So here goes. I…Continue Reading “Today I did a thing…..”

“Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship” – Denzel Washington   Running and working out is not something that comes easily to me. I am not a natural athlete. I really struggle with getting out of bed to go and do something that is so hard. I am (almost) always happy when the workout is done and I am (almost) always happy that I got out of bed to do it. I am usually proud of myself when I am done. Sometimes I…Continue Reading “Not a Natural Athlete”

A little over a month ago I wrote about how scared I am to train. I am physically weak (not putting myself down; just truth). I am however mentally strong. I also come up with some batshit crazy ideas sometimes. I am also usually good at finding a friend to join me. I like to call this the “Here hold my beer” challenge. A few weeks ago I sent my friend Lisa a text asking if she wanted to go back to Crossfit with me. She…Continue Reading “Shit Show Starts Now”

I remember years ago when I was at my heaviest and I would hear people say stuff like “you have to find a workout that is fun” or “you have to find a workout that you enjoy”. I remember thinking man these people are completely crazy, how is anything at the gym or anything that is hard also fun? The very definition of fun is “enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure” I could not picture anything as awful as going to the gym or God forbid RUNNING being…Continue Reading “It eventually becomes fun”