I have always been really good at showing up for others. I have the ability to get things done. I pride myself on people being able to count on me. If someone asks me if I can do something to help them or needs my assistance I am going to do everything I can to be there for them. I am good at that. I am good at getting tasks done. I enjoy getting tasks done and making sure that boxes on the to-do list…Continue Reading “Showing Up … For Myself”

I have missed Crossfit and the way I feel after a Crossfit class. I did all sorts of research looking for a Crossfit gym that fit within my monthly budget, appeared to be all levels and welcoming to new members/ people. I chose a gym, registered and paid for a class. I was so excited to lift things again. I arrived to class about 15 minutes early. I was already terrified because I hate trying new gym classes, it is intimidating. Today I was placed…Continue Reading “Gym Bullies are Real”

“Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship” – Denzel Washington   Running and working out is not something that comes easily to me. I am not a natural athlete. I really struggle with getting out of bed to go and do something that is so hard. I am (almost) always happy when the workout is done and I am (almost) always happy that I got out of bed to do it. I am usually proud of myself when I am done. Sometimes I…Continue Reading “Not a Natural Athlete”

A little over a month ago I wrote about how scared I am to train. I am physically weak (not putting myself down; just truth). I am however mentally strong. I also come up with some batshit crazy ideas sometimes. I am also usually good at finding a friend to join me. I like to call this the “Here hold my beer” challenge. A few weeks ago I sent my friend Lisa a text asking if she wanted to go back to Crossfit with me. She…Continue Reading “Shit Show Starts Now”

I remember years ago when I was at my heaviest and I would hear people say stuff like “you have to find a workout that is fun” or “you have to find a workout that you enjoy”. I remember thinking man these people are completely crazy, how is anything at the gym or anything that is hard also fun? The very definition of fun is “enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure” I could not picture anything as awful as going to the gym or God forbid RUNNING being…Continue Reading “It eventually becomes fun”