I have always been really good at showing up for others. I have the ability to get things done. I pride myself on people being able to count on me. If someone asks me if I can do something to help them or needs my assistance I am going to do everything I can to be there for them. I am good at that. I am good at getting tasks done. I enjoy getting tasks done and making sure that boxes on the to-do list…Continue Reading “Showing Up … For Myself”

  On Monday next week, I start half marathon training. This will be the first time since 2014 that I am really training for a race. This training will provide me with the strength and confidence that I need to start training for the NYC Marathon in a few months. (I am not officially in the marathon yet, but fingers crossed or charity). I have chatted with my incredibly patient coach and he believes I can do the race (both of them). I want to…Continue Reading “Real Talk Here …”

I have missed Crossfit and the way I feel after a Crossfit class. I did all sorts of research looking for a Crossfit gym that fit within my monthly budget, appeared to be all levels and welcoming to new members/ people. I chose a gym, registered and paid for a class. I was so excited to lift things again. I arrived to class about 15 minutes early. I was already terrified because I hate trying new gym classes, it is intimidating. Today I was placed…Continue Reading “Gym Bullies are Real”

I would be lying if I said the last three weeks have been easy. I am new in a city where I don’t really have any friends yet. The lack of social life has been hard. I expected this to be hard. I did not expect to make friends overnight, this will come in time. The thing I did not expect to be hard was to figure out a workout routine. I expected to be able to just jump right in and find that perfect…Continue Reading “Finding My Confidence”

A little over a month ago I wrote about how scared I am to train. I am physically weak (not putting myself down; just truth). I am however mentally strong. I also come up with some batshit crazy ideas sometimes. I am also usually good at finding a friend to join me. I like to call this the “Here hold my beer” challenge. A few weeks ago I sent my friend Lisa a text asking if she wanted to go back to Crossfit with me. She…Continue Reading “Shit Show Starts Now”

My goals for 2018 are different than I have ever had before. My goals are far greater than just losing weight (though that is one) and much larger than just trying to run more miles. My goals this year all revolve around me following my dreams. So here is my list of goals for 2018 and the ways I am planning on making them a reality. Each of these goals below have more micro-segments that I will share as the time is right. Be brave…Continue Reading “2018 Goals”

This morning I sat down and went to Dictionary.com to see the actual difference between a goal and resolutions. Goal :  The result or achievement toward which effort is directed; aim; end. Resolution:  A formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization. A decision or determination; a resolve: to make a firm resolution to do something. The act determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc As you can see the biggest difference I can see…Continue Reading “Goals vs Resolutions”

I just realized how NEGATIVE my last few posts have been. This is real life though. I promised myself when I decided to start a new blog and write that it was going to be real. Real life brings seasons of negativity but I am an overall positive person and I love life. The running and working out thing is HARD. This week I started a new job and joined the gym in my building so I am a member of a gym again. I…Continue Reading “No More Negativity (for now)”

So I did something a few months ago that I have never done before. I entered a lottery for a race.  The NY Half Marathon. I know I am not someone who typically wins stuff, and I especially do not win lotteries. I was excited about this.I was confident that somehow even though I am not someone who really wins lotteries, I would get into this race. This was going to be the race that got me running again. I did not just put all…Continue Reading “Race Lotteries Suck”

Have you ever been sitting in your car at the gym, and actually terrified about stepping out of the car? I am talking being genuinely scared to get out of the car and go inside. I mean this seems silly right, every person in there was once a beginner and yet it is a legitimate fear. I know and understand this fear far too well. This fear actually prevented me from truly becoming involved in a Crossfit gym. I went to a few classes and…Continue Reading “Fear in Training”