I have always been really good at showing up for others. I have the ability to get things done. I pride myself on people being able to count on me. If someone asks me if I can do something to help them or needs my assistance I am going to do everything I can to be there for them. I am good at that. I am good at getting tasks done. I enjoy getting tasks done and making sure that boxes on the to-do list…Continue Reading “Showing Up … For Myself”

  On Monday next week, I start half marathon training. This will be the first time since 2014 that I am really training for a race. This training will provide me with the strength and confidence that I need to start training for the NYC Marathon in a few months. (I am not officially in the marathon yet, but fingers crossed or charity). I have chatted with my incredibly patient coach and he believes I can do the race (both of them). I want to…Continue Reading “Real Talk Here …”

This sentence is so much easier to say than it is to believe. I think this statement rings even more true for people who may not have been athletic in their child/teen or college years. I have been running and working out for a number of years but it was not until a few years ago that I started to recognized that I am an athlete, it was even longer before I could get myself to say it out loud. I could say it about…Continue Reading “I am an ATHLETE”

I have missed Crossfit and the way I feel after a Crossfit class. I did all sorts of research looking for a Crossfit gym that fit within my monthly budget, appeared to be all levels and welcoming to new members/ people. I chose a gym, registered and paid for a class. I was so excited to lift things again. I arrived to class about 15 minutes early. I was already terrified because I hate trying new gym classes, it is intimidating. Today I was placed…Continue Reading “Gym Bullies are Real”

I would be lying if I said the last three weeks have been easy. I am new in a city where I don’t really have any friends yet. The lack of social life has been hard. I expected this to be hard. I did not expect to make friends overnight, this will come in time. The thing I did not expect to be hard was to figure out a workout routine. I expected to be able to just jump right in and find that perfect…Continue Reading “Finding My Confidence”

“Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship” – Denzel Washington   Running and working out is not something that comes easily to me. I am not a natural athlete. I really struggle with getting out of bed to go and do something that is so hard. I am (almost) always happy when the workout is done and I am (almost) always happy that I got out of bed to do it. I am usually proud of myself when I am done. Sometimes I…Continue Reading “Not a Natural Athlete”

A little over a month ago I wrote about how scared I am to train. I am physically weak (not putting myself down; just truth). I am however mentally strong. I also come up with some batshit crazy ideas sometimes. I am also usually good at finding a friend to join me. I like to call this the “Here hold my beer” challenge. A few weeks ago I sent my friend Lisa a text asking if she wanted to go back to Crossfit with me. She…Continue Reading “Shit Show Starts Now”

I remember years ago when I was at my heaviest and I would hear people say stuff like “you have to find a workout that is fun” or “you have to find a workout that you enjoy”. I remember thinking man these people are completely crazy, how is anything at the gym or anything that is hard also fun? The very definition of fun is “enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure” I could not picture anything as awful as going to the gym or God forbid RUNNING being…Continue Reading “It eventually becomes fun”

My goals for 2018 are different than I have ever had before. My goals are far greater than just losing weight (though that is one) and much larger than just trying to run more miles. My goals this year all revolve around me following my dreams. So here is my list of goals for 2018 and the ways I am planning on making them a reality. Each of these goals below have more micro-segments that I will share as the time is right. Be brave…Continue Reading “2018 Goals”

I just realized how NEGATIVE my last few posts have been. This is real life though. I promised myself when I decided to start a new blog and write that it was going to be real. Real life brings seasons of negativity but I am an overall positive person and I love life. The running and working out thing is HARD. This week I started a new job and joined the gym in my building so I am a member of a gym again. I…Continue Reading “No More Negativity (for now)”