I know I have mentioned here before how hard running has been for me in the past few months. It has been hard and honestly anytime I have run, I have been miserable. It has not been fun at all. I would finish a run and all I could think about is how awful it was, and how slow I was. I have really been beating myself down for not being as strong or as fast as I was several years ago. I have not…Continue Reading “Re-Discovering the Joy of Running”

I have missed Crossfit and the way I feel after a Crossfit class. I did all sorts of research looking for a Crossfit gym that fit within my monthly budget, appeared to be all levels and welcoming to new members/ people. I chose a gym, registered and paid for a class. I was so excited to lift things again. I arrived to class about 15 minutes early. I was already terrified because I hate trying new gym classes, it is intimidating. Today I was placed…Continue Reading “Gym Bullies are Real”

I would be lying if I said the last three weeks have been easy. I am new in a city where I don’t really have any friends yet. The lack of social life has been hard. I expected this to be hard. I did not expect to make friends overnight, this will come in time. The thing I did not expect to be hard was to figure out a workout routine. I expected to be able to just jump right in and find that perfect…Continue Reading “Finding My Confidence”

“Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship” – Denzel Washington   Running and working out is not something that comes easily to me. I am not a natural athlete. I really struggle with getting out of bed to go and do something that is so hard. I am (almost) always happy when the workout is done and I am (almost) always happy that I got out of bed to do it. I am usually proud of myself when I am done. Sometimes I…Continue Reading “Not a Natural Athlete”

A little over a month ago I wrote about how scared I am to train. I am physically weak (not putting myself down; just truth). I am however mentally strong. I also come up with some batshit crazy ideas sometimes. I am also usually good at finding a friend to join me. I like to call this the “Here hold my beer” challenge. A few weeks ago I sent my friend Lisa a text asking if she wanted to go back to Crossfit with me. She…Continue Reading “Shit Show Starts Now”

I remember years ago when I was at my heaviest and I would hear people say stuff like “you have to find a workout that is fun” or “you have to find a workout that you enjoy”. I remember thinking man these people are completely crazy, how is anything at the gym or anything that is hard also fun? The very definition of fun is “enjoyment, amusement, or lighthearted pleasure” I could not picture anything as awful as going to the gym or God forbid RUNNING being…Continue Reading “It eventually becomes fun”

I just realized how NEGATIVE my last few posts have been. This is real life though. I promised myself when I decided to start a new blog and write that it was going to be real. Real life brings seasons of negativity but I am an overall positive person and I love life. The running and working out thing is HARD. This week I started a new job and joined the gym in my building so I am a member of a gym again. I…Continue Reading “No More Negativity (for now)”

Have you ever been sitting in your car at the gym, and actually terrified about stepping out of the car? I am talking being genuinely scared to get out of the car and go inside. I mean this seems silly right, every person in there was once a beginner and yet it is a legitimate fear. I know and understand this fear far too well. This fear actually prevented me from truly becoming involved in a Crossfit gym. I went to a few classes and…Continue Reading “Fear in Training”

I am stuck right now. I am stuck in a black hole. I am just not sure how to begin my training plan AGAIN. I know, the old saying that you just need to tie your shoes and go. This is so much easier said than done. I am working a weird schedule right now as I prepare for a big move in my life over the next few months. I am working later nights some days and then morning shifts others. I am tired so…Continue Reading “The Black Hole of Training Motivation”

My name is Leona and I have created this website / blog after a long time of thinking about it. I have a story to tell and a  journey I am inviting to go on with me. I will be blogging about my training, my eating, my life and my adventures. I will be writing about the really great workouts and the really crappy ones and lessons I learn the hard way along the way. I will be writing about new and upcoming adventures I am going on. I will…Continue Reading “The Athena Athlete: I am a Goddess of Kickass”