Why do I desire to be a stronger person today than I was yesterday? The most common answer I have given in the past as to why I decided to make the changes in my life to become a healthier person was to be a role model for my nieces. I love those girls more than anything or anyone else in the world, however they can not be my why. They can still be a part of my why but they can not be my whole reason. My why needs to be even more than they are it needs to be me. My why, my reason for pushing myself in a workout, or a race needs to be because I need to prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to. I have been thinking a lot about this over the last few months. I have been trying to figure out where how to find that fire inside me again. I have discovered that when I stopped believing in myself, my motivation left. My nieces, my family and my friends have never (nor will the ever) stop believing in me, but that by itself was not enough. My why, my motivation for getting myself to the gym it has got to come from within. I am slowly learning how to believe in myself again. Not only do I know that I CAN be stronger than I was yesterday, but I deserve to be stronger than I was yesterday. I think that is the hardest part of being your own why is not just believing that you can but believing that you deserve to be strong and do hard things. I am excited about ending 2018 stronger than I started, and not just physically and I am looking forward to 2019 being a year that I believe in myself and remember that I am my own why.